i clearly remember the day mum kiel and i left. i was sitting at the dining room table in my nighty, sitting listening to them fight... i remember where you were standing, and me not wanting to leave. i have the clearest of clear picture in my head, i was 5.
life once was great and carefree as a kid. forced to move into nans house for a while i'm sure i wasn't the happiest of kids. the day we came and got all of our belongings from the house you locked me out and wouldnt let me in, heartbreaking. Everything we owned chuckd recklessly on the back veranda for us to pick up. i remember wanting to take the fish tank and my evil aunty throwing crude words at my mum and threatening to call the cops. How can people who once shared such love have so much hate for eachother?..who produced human life together. Atleast put on a happy face infront of me. For years i listened to each of them bad mouth each other, it broke my heart and in defence i stood up for both of them yelling back at what bad things they would say about one and another. Even adults can be immature and bitchy. Living life as a teenager, mums gone her own way and im usually home alone while she spends time with her partner, dads got a partner too. they live together. i dont hate i because im so use to it, but i dont love it either, i wish everything was simple, i wish i could have better relationships with them both, who i love to death.my father is one of the funniest characters, always pulling dad jokes and being silly. never ever do i fight with him. always happy to see me and always has smartass remarks for when im coming to see him next, he's up with the teenage lingo, chats to me on facebook, always offers me goon sacks and teases me about when i got taken home by the cops when i was 15 (he was furious!) boy do i love him!
And my mumma, since my brother moved out we have definatly gotten closer, your so fun, when i play music you dance, you do anything to make my life great, gets on the internet first so she can buy me festival tickets so i dont miss out, organises transport and everything else. sometimes thinks shes my age and wants to be bestfriends with my friends. i feel safe when she is around because i know she'd do anything to protect me. cannot wait untill im legal to go out, i know for a fact she'd be so much fun on the dancefloor and she'd definatly out dance me!
eternal love for you both.
And my mumma, since my brother moved out we have definatly gotten closer, your so fun, when i play music you dance, you do anything to make my life great, gets on the internet first so she can buy me festival tickets so i dont miss out, organises transport and everything else. sometimes thinks shes my age and wants to be bestfriends with my friends. i feel safe when she is around because i know she'd do anything to protect me. cannot wait untill im legal to go out, i know for a fact she'd be so much fun on the dancefloor and she'd definatly out dance me!
eternal love for you both.